"I love you, I hope fate brings us back."
I've read your text several times over and over for the past few hours. This is the final line that I struggle to read.
I will be praying for this moment.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Drove home at a loss of words. So shocked about what had happened tonight...
Clarity played and instantly I broke down into tears. Never have I cried as much as I did within these last 5 years. Tears of joy, remorse, sadness... and I fucking hate crying.
/endpost, this is the feeling I dreaded the most since the first breakup.
I want it back.
Clarity played and instantly I broke down into tears. Never have I cried as much as I did within these last 5 years. Tears of joy, remorse, sadness... and I fucking hate crying.
/endpost, this is the feeling I dreaded the most since the first breakup.
I want it back.
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Interesting.
Just stumbled upon this on facebook. Just had to share it here. I for one, believe this. Haha
Girls Need To Realize: WRITTEN BY A GUY
We guys don't care if you talk to other guys. We don't care if you're friends with other guys. But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there. We don't care if a guy calls>OR TEXTS< you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. That it can't wait till the morning. Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence. Yeah, you can quote me. Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood im in. Let us pay for you! dont 'feel bad' We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say 'thank you. Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed. You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. We like you for who you are and not what you are. Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up. Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it. Don't get angry easily. Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that. Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful' i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of. On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ; ) Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!! Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect Someone who will honor your morals. Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest. Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes. Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel. Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it. Give the nice guys a chance. Guys repost this if you agree. Girls repost this if you think it's cute.. Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.
Life is too short to complain about everything that comes your way so stop and smell the roses in life because you might never have another time to take it, so take your time because they are all different in every way, so take chances in life, if it doesn't work out then fine, there are always more roses to smell.
Girls Need To Realize: WRITTEN BY A GUY
We guys don't care if you talk to other guys. We don't care if you're friends with other guys. But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there. We don't care if a guy calls>OR TEXTS< you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. That it can't wait till the morning. Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/ gorgeous/cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence. Yeah, you can quote me. Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take Advantage of the mood im in. Let us pay for you! dont 'feel bad' We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say 'thank you. Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed. You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. We like you for who you are and not what you are. Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's. or my tshirt and boxers, not all dolled up. Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it. Don't get angry easily. Stop using magazines/media as your bible. Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that. Whatever happened to the word 'handsome'/'beautiful' i'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with 'Hey handsome!' instead of 'Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy' or whatever else you can think of. On the other hand im not sayin i woulndnt like it ether ; ) Girls, I cannot stress this enough: if you aren't being treated right by a guy, dont wait for him to change!!!!! Ditch his sorry butt, disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect Someone who will honor your morals. Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest. Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes. Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel. Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say 'i love you' ..and actually mean it. Give the nice guys a chance. Guys repost this if you agree. Girls repost this if you think it's cute.. Every Guy who isn't a jerk will agree with this, so we hope that all the girls that read this will repost this.
Life is too short to complain about everything that comes your way so stop and smell the roses in life because you might never have another time to take it, so take your time because they are all different in every way, so take chances in life, if it doesn't work out then fine, there are always more roses to smell.
Monday, October 10, 2011
As happy as I can be, This is how its been now.
It's been a few weeks now, and I can understand now what people have been telling me. All I can think about is music, and the good times it brings. No longer am I thinking about women, or if I can find someone on my level that will stick with me.
Someone once said " You don't need to find someone to feel complete. You are yourself, and however you feel has nothing to do with anybody else."
It's true, I don't worry about if this girl likes me, or how bad I want to have a girlfriend. All that shit will come to me eventually. It'll be love in the most purest of ways once it happens, so why rush things? When things are rushed, doesn't the product turn out to be half assed anyway?
So this is what it truly means to be single huh? Party all the time, and enjoy yourself and the company of others. I'm starting to like this idea. I can't afford to have anybody pull me down anymore, but that goes for me as well. I shouldn't expect so much out of the little things like I always would.
This is pretty fun, lets see how far I can go huh?
"But its okay, I've got no regrets."
Someone once said " You don't need to find someone to feel complete. You are yourself, and however you feel has nothing to do with anybody else."
It's true, I don't worry about if this girl likes me, or how bad I want to have a girlfriend. All that shit will come to me eventually. It'll be love in the most purest of ways once it happens, so why rush things? When things are rushed, doesn't the product turn out to be half assed anyway?
So this is what it truly means to be single huh? Party all the time, and enjoy yourself and the company of others. I'm starting to like this idea. I can't afford to have anybody pull me down anymore, but that goes for me as well. I shouldn't expect so much out of the little things like I always would.
This is pretty fun, lets see how far I can go huh?
"But its okay, I've got no regrets."
Sunday, September 25, 2011
And like that, I can easily say I've had the best time of my life.
Nocturnal was amazing, I met a ton of new people and danced my ass off (Which is rare.)
Although I ran into a few bumps Friday, my newly made friends gave me "assistance." Needless to say, I will cherish this moment all of my life.
I've always wanted to go to raves, but was always scared. Aids pricking, drug overdose, etc.
Its funny how easily you can disregard things when you start caring less about things, but because of it, I have a new insight on life. Rather then feeling so down all the time, just be happy. Happiness is key, regardless of the situation. Tough luck; that's life. Move on with it and give yourself something else to feel happy about.
It is now Sunday, 4:56am. Nocturnal has come and gone, but will forever be in my heart. This has opened up my eyes, and I can now see clearly. Disregard all thoughts and assumptions that you and others have against yourself, life is more easygoing that way.
Can't wait for the next one :)
Although I ran into a few bumps Friday, my newly made friends gave me "assistance." Needless to say, I will cherish this moment all of my life.
I've always wanted to go to raves, but was always scared. Aids pricking, drug overdose, etc.
Its funny how easily you can disregard things when you start caring less about things, but because of it, I have a new insight on life. Rather then feeling so down all the time, just be happy. Happiness is key, regardless of the situation. Tough luck; that's life. Move on with it and give yourself something else to feel happy about.
It is now Sunday, 4:56am. Nocturnal has come and gone, but will forever be in my heart. This has opened up my eyes, and I can now see clearly. Disregard all thoughts and assumptions that you and others have against yourself, life is more easygoing that way.
Can't wait for the next one :)
Friday, September 23, 2011
Escape me. This is going to be life changing...
The last few weeks have been life changing for me. I've gain a totally different outlook on life and my god, its been amazing.
In about 4 hours, I'll be taking a road trip down to San Bernadino where I will be taking part in Nocturnal Wonderland, a massive two-day rave. This will be the life changing experience that I have been waiting for.
Seven hours alone with my hookah, music, and myself.
I'll keep updated tonight after the event.
Talk about a breath of fresh air huh?
Monday, August 15, 2011
Blast from the past, which was apparently 2 years ago...
"it's not the fear of the stream that I can't cross
its the thought of what I would say
beause my main problem is I can't (is I can't) is I can't make conversation"
its the thought of what I would say
beause my main problem is I can't (is I can't) is I can't make conversation"
This pretty much explains it. The hardest part is to connect with someone, and when its possible... Can I put it in my own words to get that mutual feeling? I don't think its ever possible, and 90% of the time I find myself walking into the darkness, either hoping for a light to shine my way, or I stumble and fall. I guess I need to endure this darkness until I'm guided, because I'm not ready to fall yet. Not now.
Anyway, highlights from the last update.
Timmy is crashing here for the week, Its refreshing to have somebody new to hang around.
More hours, I can't stress enough about how much I Love the new store, friendly customers and a warm welcoming.
Classes starting soon, It'll be refreshing how this year will go.
New phone! Blackberry bold! aand so far, I'M LOVING IT! I haven't even used the blackberry to it's full potential and yet i'm still in love with this!
Thanks again for everybody who attended the BBQ yesterday, it really was a highlight of the summer. Nothing like a good BBQ with the indoor pool and hookah to set things off, and karaoke to boot!
New friends, and new experiences. This helps me evolve and learn about myself. Fads are fads, but the ones important enough will leave impressions either helping you learn from them or shaping yourself.
So pretty much, Life's good. 'Nuff said.
Now if only I could get my relationship skills up to par with my personality. Then life will be easy again.
Hi I'm Scott, and its a pleasure to meet you :D
Its quite funny, 2 years ago I found myself in such situations where I could only live life and see where life would take me.
..Things have not changed much, but i'm content with my life.
Lets just say that my eyes have adjusted to the darkness, and as much as it hurts to walk on glass, I've built up enough tolerance to endure the very steps I take.
Bring it on life...I'm ready for you.
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