Either or, I'm sure everybody has had those moments. Oddly enough, only the good memories stick in your mind...Always there for you to think back to when things get bad, or when you're feeling down.
I feel like sometimes I blind myself with these images. No matter how bad the situation is, I play these moments to hide away the reality of things.
Heh, but isn't that the point of being optimistic? Maybe I should be realistic about life instead of trying to live it without being negative. I can't always make a joke out of every bad situation I come across. That's just...Tasteless.
Maybe... Just maybe, it'd be good to show my vulnerable side to the public. Nothing bad can come from that now can it? I can still joke around about everything, but when I'm having an off day, I'll start spilling my guts out instead of putting on a smile, followed by the usual "I'm okay/good/alright" line.
Now, I've been reading through my posts, and it seems like 2011 is a Year of depressing for poor ol' Scott. I'll try and start posting some positive mushy crap and updates in my life to not make this blog sound like a suicide note.
A few friends and I are looking into renting an apartment. I'm very excited for this and if this goes through, I can finally take a step forward into life...Which loosely translates into a 24/7 hookah party. I'll try and keep everything updated though, fingers crossed that it happens! Also, heading out to Vegas in 6 days with the crew (rolling 8-9 deep.) Oh man, this may be a bad idea, but if I make it back alive it would mean I had gotten a liver transplant :P. Let's just say, I don't plan on being sober for 3 days. That'll give my mind something to do, rather then over think every situation i'm presented with.
Now, Q&A time!
What do you want in your life Mr. Train Man?
>> I would like to help.HOPEFULLY U'LL BE HAPPY SOON ENOUGH. U SEEM LIKE A GREAT GUY TO BE THIS DEPRESSED. JUST KEEP THOSE THAT MATTER AND THOSE THAT KEEP U GROUNDED IN YUR LIFE. BEST OF LUCK TO U!!!!!!!!!!!
Dear Scott,
ReplyDeleteI read through it :) and just to understand this blog, I also read the last blog. So here are my thoughts on things...
1. It is incredibly great that you've decided to look up, but I hope it's the same old wash rinse repeat thing where you say will, and for a while u do.. and then you stop. Catch yourself :) I'll help.
2. You're already slipping! Just because you have readers does not mean you need to please them see? You're already saying you're going to write more happy stuff (for them to read), NO write whatever you feel, even if it does "sound like a suicide note" it's YOUR emotions and YOUR blog :)
3. Oh boy, please take care I don't want one of my first months back home to include going to your funeral or handing you a get well soon card after your liver transplant. :) but have fun!
4. Read the last few sentences you wrote, and then look up "escapism"
BOL hope this helped :) TYNB!
<3Pam